Do you happen to have my brain with you by mistake? I've lost it and I do so need it for finals this next week. Oh, you don't have it? What a shame...

Wow. I know I never look like it, but I'm really stressing over finals. Haven't even started studying. I'm really trying to be better with all this stuff, but it all just sort of slips through my fingers. I'm not the best at seizing opportunities when it comes to academics.

I'm usually really chill, but these are the days that my brain turns into a soupy mush-like substance. I guess it's a good thing then that we have four days off afterwards.

.:braindead:.

Some things on my mind:

Finals (of course)
How the hell I'm going to survive finals .:shot:.
My grandpa is in the hospital again (I went to visit him today, despite how much I DON'T like hospitals)
One of my close friends has a really abusive family and she got into a lot of trouble recently
I'm sending my computer in for repair after finals and I don't know how long it will take
I'm really trying to keep my grades up (agh I want to murder geometry)
I really need a guy to talk to that I know in real life and isn't gay or much younger than me (I mean, gay guys are epic, but I need need someone new to talk to, get some fresh perspective)
I need to sleep (do I ever really get enough? Haha- NO)
I think my depression's coming back (get ready for a lot of ranting and crying)
I'm very insecure right now about my choice to become a theatre major. I want our drama teacher to like me but I feel like all my efforts are futile and I'm just being overshadowed by the girls that were there ahead of me.
I need some time to myself but no one will leave me alone. Maybe it's for the better. I'd probably just end up doing something horribly stupid and hurting people.

Blegh.

Well, this journal was just to tell you that I'll be off dA for the next week because of finals... but now it's just a mash of shit. So, congrats to you who read everything. You win a prize. A lifetime supply of air. Use it wisely.

Goodbye